How to cope with car crash?

I bought the car of my dreams.. the type of car is not important.. I put ground effects, and many more upgrades.. I put a lot of money into it.. some guy was driving by me and tried to push me off the road. I didn't do anything wrong but I think he was drunk or very mad about sumthing.. I tried to make a fast turn so that he wouldn't hit me and I ended up crashing into a stop sign and into a ditch.. my whole front and side of the car is ruined and the guy drove away.. the cops came and told me they can't do anything to find the guy and there are no cameras around the area.. anyways they gave me a lot of tickets and my licensing is most likely going to be suspended and I rely on my licences for so much! I only had liability but I decided not to go to my inssurance because they will charge me a lot more and I have to pay a lot of fees if I put it in my insurance.. so now I have to pay all the tickets and spend thousands repairing my vehicle.. I feel so bad about everything I just feel like dying!!!! I cant cope with all this! Someone please help me feel better , give me advice or anything please I'm reaching out for help I don't have no one to talk to so please help me! I don't have a good job.. I'm only a waiter.. can someone tell me how to cope with my situation!? ):